Every 2 months I have to go to the oncologist to have a checkup and see if the tumor has come back or if it is still doing what they want it to. I had one such appointment last week.
For the few days prior to each of these appointments, I’ve noticed that I get very apprehensive, fearful and quiet. Almost heart sick.
My mind goes over what I believe and know to be TRUTH… “God is good, God is in control of my life regardless of the outcome of the checkup, He will never leave me or forsake me, etc.”
Yet my emotions are hard to keep in line with the TRUTH. I feel fear, sadness, and anxiety. The “what if” question runs crazily through my mind. I withdraw into myself rather than sharing my feelings because if I do, maybe it means I do not have faith. These are LIES.
My next checkup will be in July.
God in Heaven, the God who heals, I thank you for Your grace in this . I ask that I may see through the LIES that trouble my heart and know the TRUTH your Word speaks to me. Give me the courage to ask for prayer prior to these appointments. Thank you for healing me and for the good report I get each time from the doctor. To You be the glory forever, Amen.
Tamara~wholeandholy
Tamara,
Thank you for sharing your heart with your Trinity sisters. We can now pray that the God of all comfort will guard your heart and mind and keep your body free from disease.
My grandmother was a great woman of faith and I loved her declaration, “I’m immortal ’till my work is done!”
Bless you
Carol
By: Carol on June 9, 2008
at 5:16 am
Thank you Carol! I covet the prayers of my family at Trinity and know without you I could not have faced the past year. God bless and I agree with your grandmother.
By: Tamara on June 12, 2008
at 1:28 am